In a lot of things we do, it is easy to think that parts
of it could be better. “If only” whatever it was … was sooner or later, longer
or shorter, darker or brighter. If there had been less fog, or warmer water or fewer
people or less noise or ….! Yikes. The list is endless, once you start to think
about it. But, in the midst of this clatter and clamour, sometimes there are
small islands of perfection, of what a poet I once read called the ‘still
centre, the heart of rest’. I think it is probably a really good exercise, when
the snow lingers or the guest does not arrive when expected, to search in your
memory and heart for these times, recall them, even if not in tranquility, and
cherish the memory.
For me, one of these loved times was a fall afternoon,
here on our land, taking a walk through the woods on a sunny day, a cool but
clear afternoon, with my two little girls. There were a lot of leaves down,
still at their crisp, curled best, and the girls ran through them, shuffling
and rustling and giggling. They would run ahead of me, the sun glinting off
their shiny blowing hair, or dart off to the side to investigate something
intriguing. Or they would run back to me to share a perfect scarlet leaf or a tattered
last summer aster. Sometimes they were together, sometimes off on solo explorations, but always the music of
their voices and the grace of their movement informed the perfect hour. Slanted
sunbeams picked up the fine dust of the autumn’s leavings as it swirled from their flying feet. I knew as I
walked that what was happening was precious, was perfect, I took a photo.
A photograph can only capture one tiny slice of such a
day. Even a video, the kind of thing my camera chooses to take from time to
time, would not give you scent, the surrounding tall, enduring trees, the golden leaves on the trail edges. But if I try I can remember all of it, scent,
sound, the golden sun’s illumination, the serenity. Even so, a photo helps. The one above may not be of the day I am describing; the girls look a bit older, the sun is not breaking through. But I can edit it in memory. A place in my life to treasure, forever.

Oh gosh... This is so beautiful. I miss fall in Illinois and the changing seasons. Hmmm... well... granted, it's OK that Hawaii doesn't really have winter.
ReplyDeleteYou are right, it is okay not to have winter. I used to enjoy it, but not now. Ice is treacherous and frightening. But I would miss fall, so I guess I have to put up with it.
DeleteThat is a beautiful memory!
ReplyDeleteI still have that book. We ought to meet up!
Yep. Will be in touch.
DeleteKids and leaves go together, and that is a very evocative photo. Well done.
ReplyDeleteIt is not the one I thought I had, and I can't find the one where the sun is catching the kickup from the leaves.
Deleteah well.
Beautifully written. You took us right there with you. Ah, such memories are the real gold, aren't they.
ReplyDeletethank you. That is what I was trying for.
DeleteTremendous writing here. And a beautiful reminder/lesson as well.
ReplyDeleteAs it's becoming increasingly more difficult to live well through these times, finding refuge in Memories and joy in the Little Things can help us remain both human and humane. And Nature, as always, is a refuge.
Um, I just did an edit to remove the double verb. I am a bit embarrassed to have done that. Yes, nature is what holds it together a lot of the time. I heard a lot of geese today and I love it when they come honking by. You will have grandson memories to store up, too, as I have of 'Little Stuff', even if she is accepted to Law School next year.
ReplyDeleteBrilliant memories! My dog and I picked up to many ticks last year so I'm afraid to walk in my bush anymore.
ReplyDeleteWe have been lucky, so far. And, of course, tick medication is available for the dog, even if not for people. Did you know that it used to be available for us, but it did not make the supplier enough money, so they stopped making it.
DeleteOur dog is treated, but she still gets them. My brother in law contracted Lyme last year, which I find worrisome. I've had my tick removed at the clinic, but no offer of a Lyme test. They don't seem to be equipped to do the test there. B.I.L.had to go to Renfrew hospital for that Only after showing signs of the illness.
DeleteA photograph or video or tape recording acts as a conduit for memories.
ReplyDeleteIt does. I cherish my photos, and, most especially, a tape I have of my grandmother and mother chatting.
DeleteYour remembrance of this day in the woods with your daughters is very descriptive, Mary. I could picture the sunlight and hear the leaves rustling.
ReplyDeleteThank you. Worked on that.
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